Spill the pills and throw the needle
Toss the knife and give it up
But why stop now if you’ve already gotten so far
Close to death, fearful of life and unsure.
Shut your eyes, let it in
You can feel it move across your skin.
Feel you skin
Prickle at the touch of the cold needle
Wonder why you’re in the mess you’re in
You think you know why it’s fucked up
But it’s blurry and you’re unsure.
Why does it go so far?
Too late now, it’s in too far
Your heart is slowing in its separate skin.
You start to go but you’re unsure
And you can feel the needle
Slip. Push it up,
Pull it in.
You know it’s in
And I know it’s too far
But the sign came up
And flashed a pale red light across your skin.
You take another bloody needle
And pause, unsure.
In me you sought solace, but I was unsure
And didn’t stop you when you put it in.
All the memories are needles,
Pushed too far
Into my head. Your sweaty skin
Under my fingers arches up
With the stinging release.
I pick up the bottle on the table, unsure of what’s in it.
Your heart flutters against my skin
And I try to look in
To your eyes, but your soul is too far
Out of my reach. All those goddamned needles
Lie out on your bare skin. I was unsure,
So I let you put them all in too far.
Give it up, spill the pills and throw the needles.
By Me, Carolyn (COPYRITE)
the girl
i'm lorelai. brown hair. tall. 15 years old. bisexual and proud of it. wiccan. coffee & cereal addict. creative. lives for music and friends. irish. wants to fuck craig parker and keith. make fair trade. want more? see my eljay
loves
steal away. coldplay. stars. christie. music. friends. cutting. piano. magic. shoes. reading. lotr. harry potter. writing. piercings. tattoos. swearing. true love. my sisters
loves
school. liars. matt. people who think they're 'all that'. abercrombie. boy bands. hilary duff. rap music. commercials. homophobics. hot weather. unrequited love. jerks. lawn work. pain.