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the autumn lights
Written @ 7:05 p.m. on 2004-03-04

i stared at the bonfire burning before me

and the fire leapt like dolphins through a stormy sky

as i sat there, consumed by the dancing flames,

i heard the dwarves rustling through the dry leaves littered across the forest floor

they called out many things:

freak

fag

you're so gay

their words stung like acid on an open wound

from out of the forest vale glided the most beautiful creature imaginable

the light of the fire flickered across her fluttering wings as she descended onto my hunched shoulder

my gaze settled upon her lovely face and she began to whisper

to sing

the dwarves may be screaming obscenities

but her whisper could silence their deafening roar

it was delicate and sweet to the ear

and i relaxed into it like the folds of an ancient quilt

we sat like that until the morning sun began to peak over the horizon

the fire had burned down to just a few warm embers

and the magic that had accompanied it was wilting in the rays of the sun

once again i gazed at the creature on my shoulder

but the beauty of the previous eve had vanished

now the demon which clung there slowly sunk it's venomous teeth into my naked earlobe

whatever she had been

she was no more

a screech echoed through the silence of that piercingly suny afternoon

but it soon grew into a roar

and she answered it

her whisper was gone as she laughed and spit on my face

then i ran

i left that horrid place of nightmares

and returned to my world of dreams

back home someone's thundering around

their heart is consumed with anger

someone called them gay

what is gay?

gay means happy

'come on come on get happy'

let's all dance the night away

let's frolic on the autumn breeze

and go skinny dipping in the sky

let's whisper together, you and i

and let us sing.